Ice Quing @winter@rage.love

It has been genuinely freeing to realize that I actually am kinda crazy and that's okay.

My craziness often helps me be artistically or ethically creative in ways I wouldn't stumble on without it.

When my craziness impairs my quality of life, I at least don't have self-hate for being crazy on top of everything else.

Being okay (not perfectly happy, just okay) with being crazy is itself crazy, and you know what, it's great and I recommend it to everyone.

If you’ve liked my recent posts on white fragility and have any income, please consider donating to @ArtistMarciaX - my intellectualized articulation of antiblack racism on the fedi is their actual lived experience.

Subscribe to their art here: https://www.artistmarciax.com/subscriptions
Another way to make a monthly contribution: https://en.liberapay.com/ArtistMarciaX/
Make a one time payment here (minimum donation €5): https://www.gofundme.com/f/on-the-road-to-phd

If you’re nonblack and you can’t donate, then you can’t. You don’t have to beat yourself up about it - that doesn’t help you or anyone else. But also don’t attack black people on the fedi for having needs or expressing emotions. Don’t make your limitations black people’s problem.

60 people favorited or boosted my post. If all those people donated €5 to Marcia’s GoFundMe, that would be €300. That would certainly be a start.

I can't promise that I will never make a mistake.

I also can't promise that I can improve my actions in response to call-ins or call-outs. Some of this is due to mental illness and disability reducing my ability to do *anything*, but whatever my reasons/excuses, that doesn't negate harm I do or make it invalid for people to be angry at or disappointed in me.

I try to look for cues that my input is unneeded/unwanted before I add to it. I can back off if I've been previously aggressive or derailing in a discussion, and I respect people putting up boundaries around interacting with me (whether that be an explicit request to not interact, or a nonverbal but clear signal like being blocked).

Will add more to this thread as needed.

Does anyone have any advice for running an online #mutualaid group? It's one thing to start one; it's another thing to make it sustainable and as helpful as possible to those who really need it. "Start a Facebook group!" advice overlooks security and logistics issues with the site. A public mutual aid group I joined was quickly overwhelmed by too many posts and was predated upon by a bad actor. Really REALLY want to avoid similar issues if I end up organizing.

Pitfalls of organizing: perfectionism, sense of urgency, defensiveness, quantity over quality, worship of the written word, paternalism, either/or thinking, power hoarding, fear of open conflict, individualism, progress is bigger/more, objectivity, and right to comfort.

From White Supremacy Culture
From Dismantling Racism: A Workbook for Social Change Groups, by Kenneth Jones and Tema Okun, ChangeWork, 2001.

http://cwsworkshop.org/PARC_site_B/dr-culture.html

"I currently hold a 4.0 G.P.A at Bunker Hill Community College and was pregnant the entire time. I had a baby a month early and drop all of my classes because of the difficult recovery and living as a single mother in a shelter with a newborn and sick toddler.

Without knowing, I didn’t drop a class and it went into collections, my transcript for bunker hill is now on hold for 2k. I’m asking for help with funds for this as well as funds for 3 classes at Deaf INC in Allston... Lastly, funds would also be going to College application fees and scholarships applications fees to Northeastern University, Boston University, Northern Essex Community College, Bristol Community College, Gallaudet University Online, and Framingham State University."

$843 raised of $4,000 goal

https://www.gofundme.com/f/transcript-on-hold-in-collections

https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/Toplitz

I've received an email telling me I have the option to opt out of the Google Plus Class Action settlement and instead sue Google. I think I have a new kink

A homeless acquaintance in the Springfield, MA area needs at least $100 for meds and food today. They're just recovering from being hit by a car.

Venmo @Tatiana-Toplitz18

*completely unironically* wake me up, wake me up inside