i know i'm like, unreasonably emotionally unstable rn but i'm genuinely distraught bc my stepdad and uncle said they found a stray while out hiking and gave it lots of water but then something startled it off into the brush and they never found it again. it was a husky chow mix maybe? living in the height of the texan desert? i'm so upset we cant find it.

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@ox yeah, thats what i've been thinking about too. its why i havent rushed to any conclusions about whats going on. it should hopefully start clearing up once i level out.

its like, really helpful to have friends point out my mental state too. when i was full blown out of my mine, my friends reinforced my delusions. telling me everything was actually real. it. did not help. lol.

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@ljwrites maybe! hopefully i can grow to trust my intuition again one day. right now its like learning to walk on a tight rope. oi.

me: "Oh wow my friends are talking to me a lot tonight. I hope they forgave me for whatever I did to make them not talk to me."

me to me: "Oh, right, we've been self isolating for weeks."

hrt, cultural christianity, audio hazard 

[Veggie Tales theme music plays]

duloxetine
clonidine
amphetamine
yummy pills!

estrogen
progestagen
antiandrogen
yummy pills!

hearing voices 

@ljwrites no you're right for thinking that and *usually* i do go tend to my altar whenever something off comes along but i also struggle with keeping a grip on reality. sometimes i'm really not sure which is which. i mean there's no reason to really think they arent one in the same but πŸ€·β€β™€οΈ the "am i crazy or are my ancestors contacting me?" question has come up a lot the past month. its been uh. stressful lol. but thanks for reminding me.

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@ljwrites eh, i have a history of audio/visual hallucinations that come on from exhaustion and extreme stress. i've had full breaks from reality before. i tend to go with "oh god am i losing reality again?" before "ah yes the spirit world" lmao

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@ljwrites oh, i hadn't thought of that. i hear voices and i think my mind is falling apart again. i should do that.

hearing voices 

at least they're not calling my name anymore i guess. that was weird.

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i went to go see why my mom was still up because i could hear voices across the house, but everyone is asleep and the tvs are all off.

i did it this morning too. just quiet but distinct muffled voices all talking at once but again, everyone was asleep.

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mh?? 

i wonder if its a function of my hearing going wonky or mental illness that sometimes i hear voices from a tv when no tvs are on.

hrt, cultural christianity, audio hazard 

@mxsparks its been 20 years since i last watched veggie tales and yet i remembered this melody perfectly. i don't even remember my birthday most years.

this isn't a nostalgia washed take like "oh music just sucks today" because it doesn't, but its really disheartening how much music right now is crafted to be viral snippets and not entirely fleshed out tracks

@hafnia "intimidatingly friendly" is certainly how i'd describe you

@ljwrites yeah that pretty much sums up our entire relationship lmfao

just had a former fwb describe our encounters, lovingly, as "less than savoury" and i can't stop laughing

astrology nonsense 

@glitterwitch lmfaooo my big six said Chill? Never heard of em.

astrology nonsense 

me: "I'm like, super chill."

my natal chart composed of all three water signs and three leos: πŸ‘€ mmm...

@hafnia i guess if anyone here could break the fedi this way, it would be you.

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