once you really come to terms with your anxiety, its almost like having a superpower.

i live in such a state of heightened awareness and fear that i've had to learn to think through those racing, ordinarily time stopping "blank page" surges of panic that when there is actually a real emergency to handle, i'm usually the first to respond. like bro stand back, i know what to do. i have thought through ten thousand ways this toaster could kill us and how to disarm it, lessGO

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this has happened three times in my life btw. a toaster trying to kill me and my family.

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don't ask me whats for dinner tho, i cannot make a mundane decision to actually save my life.

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also don't compare where i'm at with my anxiety with where you may be at.

i'm 31 and started having anxiety and panic attacks when i was 10. i've have a long ass time to figure things out, its just time.

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@glitter i did active shooter trainings a few times because like, working in public buildings, and i remember at one of them the trainer was talking about how everyone has a fight/flight/freeze reaction but it's impossible to know how you'll react until you face actual danger

and i was just sitting there thinking my dude, i've had those instincts kick in like three times *this morning,* the danger might not be real but my brain sure thinks it is

@ebeth oh man, yeah. the 4F response is a trip. i'm sitting around vibing to music and playing gems of war with not a damn thing wrong in the world and will rapidly cycle between three of the four responses, just playing a gem matching game lmao

anxiety is wild.

@glitter this was me and my parents during the wildfires. I had sat down and made Plans and got shit together and was ready to go in like five minutes post-evac notice and then I was sitting in the car for a goddamn hour with the cat while my Mom woke up, got dressed, and tried to find her keys c: which she apparently had thrown into some random bag she'd packed

hypervigilance def has its uses when you're *actually* in danger

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